Bad Timing

I have class today from 12-6:30. Normally I go in at 10 for my first class, but this week the Professor will be in Cali so we have no class. Chase called me this morning to see if I need a ride to campus. I didn't. He said he'd call me later before his class. His class starts at 6:30 right when my classes finish. Chase and I have a very severe case of bad timing. A timeline:

April 2006: Chase applies for an internship in Cali.
June 2006: Chase and I met in a 4 week Geology crash course.
July 2006: I finally agree to go on a date with him after weeks of him asking.
Aug 2006: We begin offically dating.
Sept 2006: He tells me he applied for an out of state intership and he will find out in Oct. if he was accepted. I want to break up with him but I agreed to wait and see.
Oct 2006: He finds out he was accepted and leaves for Cali. on Dec. 28 .

If we met earlier he wouldn't be leaving for 6 months to a year and a half. If I wasn't so close to graduating I could go with him. But the problem is I should be graduating in June, and after that, due to a terrible lack of funds on my part, I am moving back down to FL - to move back in with my parents. *Insert horror shriek here* It's a very scary thought for all of us. Though it should only be for like a year until I can go for my masters. Lately, people have been telling me horror stories of what it was like for them to move back in with their parents after being away at college. Not good.

Idyllic Pancakes

Today was crazy. Chase woke up at 5:30 and couldn't go back to sleep. I live in a studio apt, so there isn't another room he can go into so that I can sleep in quiet. Needless to say, what my brilliant bofriend does is sit next to me on the bed and poke me until I smack him. After seeing that this doesn't work he pulls the covers off of me and fights with me until he's sure I won't be able to fall back asleep. Nice. Anyway, he told me he fixed all the clocks (daylight savings) and that he is planning on leaving my house at 10:00 to go to Jersey and pick up his daughter.

It's so weird to think that he's going to be in Cali after Christmas for 6 months. I'm so afarid I'll never see him again. Or that I will and we won't be the same people anymore. I made him pancakes for breakfast. I've been making pancakes alot lately. I think I become Susie Homemake when I make pancakes. I like that feeling and I don't want to lose it. Last week I made pumpkin muffins and cookies for Claire (his daughter) and his family. Tomorrow I am suppose to go over there and carve the pumpkin with them. I just don't know how much closer I should allow myself to get to them because he's leaving. It's not fair to his daughter, and it isn't fair to me. Chase and I talk don't really discuss what's going to happen to us when he leaves. We imply that we're going to stay together, but I'm not sure it's realistic.