Stoopid Yellow Bird

I was napping with Tana before when I had a really assed out dream.

Like, I was all set to take my geo final and was all prepared and then I ended up just sitting down and watching the clock and not realizing it was time to take the final until like 20 minutes later. I called my ride and freaked out saying that now I needed to make up some excuse because I needed to take it on that day because I was moving, maybe I got in to a car accident or something when these fricken birds that thought they were all like gangsta that were apparently living underneath my dresser started harassing me.

Now, it seems I knew these birds since I hated them with such a passion. Anyway, head yellow bird kept making advances at me and like snapping at me with its beak thing. So, naturally after like the 30th time I went to snatch it, it caught my finger and started chowing on it. The brilliant person I am grabbed its neck and started choking it only to realize that like it wasnt easy to kill because it was made of like wire and I ended up tearing all the cartledge/skin/tissue off my finger to where just the bone was there, while the stupid bird stared all crooked at me cuz its neck was broken. I was like you mofo and chucked bits of skin at the stoopid yellow cracked out shithead.

So, there I am, late for my final with the skin of my index finger missing and I'm half panicked and half relieved that I have an injury to explain to my professor why I was late for my final. That's when I woke up all fucked up. I dunno. So, there is that.

If

And if I had a clue I'd know exactly
What to do
If I were the wiser of the two.

And if I saw it all so clear
I'd write it down and bend your ear
If I were the clearer of the two.

We could take a walk into the
Canyons of the fifth avenue
Sing and Dance
Just to name a few.

All I do
All I do

And if I heared the Angels sing I'd
Sing it back to you and bring the
Sound of heaven ringing just for you

And if I saw the sun fall down
I'd pick it up and make a crown
One that was a perfect fit for you.

We could take a walk
Into the apple orchard by the school
We could make a little residue

We could find a place to stay
A secret little hide away
Spend a little time inside of you

All I do
All I do

All eyes
All eyes


All eyes on you

All I do
All I do
All I do
All I do


RHCP - If

Thursday Thirteen #18

Thirteen Bath and Body Scents/products I love

1. Japanese Cherry Blossom
2. Midnight Pomegranate (Especially the body butter)
3. Juniper Breeze
4. The C.O. Bigelow Lip Shines (all)
5. Moonlight Path
6. Exotic Coconut
7. Breathe
8. The Lavender and Sage aromatherapy
9. Wexler
10. Flowering Herb (Seasonal)
11. Banana Smoothie
12. Blissful Templetree Moisture Bodybalm
13. Brown Sugar and Fig

Thursday Thirteen #16

Thirteen of my Favorite Beers in no Order

Plans

I am finding a problem though, with me, like when it comes down to me picking some booze to buy I'm simply overwhelmed. Like, I want everything. No, really, everything. I am far less of a drunk now then a year ago. A year ago I was drinking every day. Shut up, shit's good. I bought some Jameson. Mmm Jameson... smooooooth. I also grabbed a 6'er of pabst, and rum.
Tonight will be fun. The ladies re coming over after Tana gets out of work at 7. I'm gonna nap the rest of the day and watch tv. I have to be at work at 7:30 tomorrow morning so I can't stay up SUPER super late. We'll see though.

Thursday Thirteen #15

The Tana Edition

Thirteen Things About Tana

1. She's 26
2. She calls me lady
3. She's southern
4. She has a drawl
5. Her eyes are a clear blueish
6. She works for a bank
7. She sings sweet songs to me
8. She drives a Toyota
9. She lives in the city
10. She has some pretty sexy tattoos
11. She has really hot pants
12. She drinks bud light
13. She digs me

She's a...

I'm still a mess about the girl though. All I'm doing is thinking about her. Missing her. All day long.

Thursday Thirteen #14

Thirteen Cold Cereals I Heart

1. Trix
2. Cheerios
3. Cocoa Puffs
4. Honey Nut Cheerios
5. Frosted Flakes
6. Special K
7. Cinnamon Toast Crunch
8. Honey Bunches Of Oats
9. Kix
10. Mini-Wheats
11. Quaker Oatmeal Squares
12. Rice Krispies
13. Raisin Bran

Thursday Thirteen #13

Thirteen Nicknames of People I Know

1. Snarky
2. Beetle
3. Spoons
4. Ananas
5. Abs
6. Pling
7. Uncle Buggle
8. Meekster
9. Tana
10. Donder
11. Lau
12. Kra-Nar
13. Grim

The Flag is Torn

Some days are easier than others. Today was a little tough. I wish I wasn't so faulty and so fragile. Things just don't hurt me the same way they hurt other people. I feel and process it all differently. This is one of the few times that I just wish my brain would function "normally".

Thursday Thirteen #12

Mena's Guest Star Thursday Thirteen

Thirteen Movies Quotes

"It is...your destiny."
"Beware the moon!"
"Strange things are afoot at the Circle K."
"Yes. Doug can read."
"Give him this pen."
"Pay? Bu-ddy?"
"A day may come...but it is not this day!"
"I'll be baaack."
"Give me my Firebird keys!" "You must chill! You must chill! I have hidden your keys! Chill!" "I love you, man!"
"They're singing to that man."
"Ted. Alaska."
"Atlanta!"
"I will take it! I will take it; though, I do not know the way."

Acute...hang on..

A lifetime even as short as mine has been so far that is full of stress, disappointments, and heartache can cause serious weakening of the heart muscles to the point of congestive heart failure and death. Sometimes, like right now, I feel the swelling pain in my chest more than others. I get so nervous that one day I'm really going to die of a broken heart and it's not one person causing this at all.

Like I said, it's what my life has been up until now and sometimes I just want it to be over with so at 3:30 in the morning I'm not feeling empty, alone, and despondent with tingling down my left arm, shortness of breath and searing pain in the left side of my chest.

The smallest, tiniest, most miniscule thing can drag me down 8 feet under the earth and destroy a good night. I wish it were only emotional pain. Now I'm gonna take an aspirin, drink a glass of water, and take a sleeping pill so I can forget for a little while the things that are hurting me so bad.

I will deal with those feelings tomorrow. No, I will. Like I said, it's not any one person. It's not even anyone I saw tonight. Quite the contrary. The vast majority of my friends are reasons I keep holding on. Don't be surprised if I take a little maintenance vacation quietly away from everyone. From literally everyone I know for a week or two very soon. It would be a great thing for me. Trust me.

Thursday Thirteen #11

Thirteen Birthday Thoughts

1. I miss Chase
2. My friends are amazing
3. No birthday sex for me
4. Last night drinking and early classes don't mix
5. I'm old
6. Time really goes by fast
7. Only the good die young, so I have nothing to worry about
8. I want another piece of biddy cake
9. Life's not half bad
10. I don't feel 23
11. Should I be happier?
12. I love everyone in my life right now
13. I'm kinda lucky?

Thursday Thirteen #10

Thirteen Things That Happened This Week

1. Mena is staying in my Apt
2. Snarky said he wouldn't marry her
3. She begged me to stay
4. I'm realized I'm a nice person
5. Chase got me a ticket to go to Cali at the end of the month
6. I stepped on Mena when I woke up this morning
7. She cleaned my Apt while I was gone
8. I started classes
9. Chase sent me his shirt
10. Mena still isn't speaking to Snarky
11. It snowed
12. My bus was on time
13. We went grocery shopping

Nicotine Daydreams

I faught off the urge to gussy myself up and take a new pic earlier. Like, I think I'm a little WAY into my own self promotion on here. Like, I won't lie, I kinda like looking at my own pictures cuz it's not how I look every day and I think I do look nice when I make the effort. Right now I'm wearing a red camo t-shirt and sweatpants and yeah my hair, yipe. No good. I probably have big huge suitcases under my eyes too. I would not want to see me. But you guys dont get to see that me... like 3:41am insomnia me... you're so lucky. Bahhhhh! I'm bitching... that's no fun.

Anyone else sense my incredibly random rambling? Can ya tell I need someone to come over here and either bash me in the noggin to knock me out or shove a funnel in my mouth and start pouring insane amounts of whiskey in it? Right. Whichever. I need some help. There's a $1 in it for you. Any volunteers? Right. I can think of 20 off hand but ya'll are sleeping like normal people right now.

Revenge again. If my body wasnt already asleep the past 3 hours I'd probably be dancing a little in my chair.

Thursday Thirteen #9

Thirteen Thing I Miss About FL

1. My Cats
2. The Food Network
3. My Friends
4. Food
5. Washer and Dryer
6. The Weather
7. Driving
8. Shopping
9. The Clothes I Left There
10. Being on Vacation
11. Sleeping till 8am
12. The Mam
13. S&S

Thursday Thirteen #8

Last Thirteen Incoming Txts 1. Taylor - At @ 7 2. Mam - Do you plan on coming over today? 3. Mam - Hello? 4. Bunny - Call me ASAP 5. Mam - Are you awake? 6. Bunny - Call me I need u 7. Marcy - Im cumin now 8. Chase - I don't no babe 9. Chase - It sucks ill call u l8er 10. Chase - Workin since 8 babe tried calling u b4 11. Chase - R u awake? 12. Mam - I just did 13. Mam - ok Links to other Thursday Thirteens! 1. (leave your link in comments, I’ll add you here!)

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Thirteen Things I Hear at The Moment 1. Fans 2. The Trees Blowing 3. A Car Pass By 4. The Fridge Turn On 5. My Cat Scratching Around Litter 6. A Car Door Shut 7. Crickets 8. Paula Deen On The TV 9. My Step-Father Blow His Nose 10. Water Running 11. A Dog Barking 12. A Train Horn 13. A Commerical for Cheese Links to other Thursday Thirteens! 1. (leave your link in comments, I’ll add you here!)

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Courtney Love

He said there are two types of people in this world: Those who hate Courtney Love and those who do not.



I don't.



I don't even pity her.




I just accept her.